They say nothing is impossible yet I sit here wondering how it is possible to cope with losing you as my best friend. I could count on you to be there for me with anything that was ever on my mind, you knew everything there was to know about me and always knew how to make me smile when reading our conversations. Thoughts about you in my mind were never negative, and always looking towards us in our future, but now I find it the exact opposite. I give myself anxiety fearing that everything I do you’ll find annoying, my thoughts now remain in our past memories, still I remember you being my valentine, giving me foot and back massages at the lake because I wanted to tan, our sleepover and trip to Jones Beach, me tutoring you in math, our random FaceTime calls consisting of Spike and you doing homework, It was amazing seeing how much you cared about me and I trusted you with my life, I didn’t expect it to ever end and that’s my fault because now I see how much you truly meant to me all this time. I don’t know if it’s that I’ve been replaced, if I changed, or even if you just got sick of me, but this has all made me realize to appreciate the friendships I have because no matter how close you are to someone that doesn’t mean you’ll always be. It’s scary to think just this summer I could have told you everything about anything and you would have always known what to say and how to help but now I don’t even have the courage to talk to you about anything because I can just tell I annoy you. I’ll always be waiting for our friendship to be what it used to, I’ll never let anyone get away with saying something bad about you, I’ll never forget what an amazing best friend you were, and I will never stop hoping for us to somehow be the best friends we used to be. I love ya, AMS.